I can/can't/can do this

It drives me crazy that I have no yet finished Carnal Fear. I open it every now and then. Sometimes I write something.

I opened it up today and started reading part of it to see where I left off. I can't read more than about five words before I start crying. I don't know what that says about the quality of the writing but boy is it ever painful for me to read. My chest feels like I forgot how to breathe just from clicking on its folder.

But you know I know it is good. Maybe not good all the way through yet and clearly unfinished but it's good and I want to finish it before I die.