I'm really never clear on why I listen and go to the emergency room when my doctor wants me to go. It seems like such a waste of time. Nothing ever really changes.

My PT/INR is too high, my electrolytes are too low, my blood cells are too low. I have no balance in my life. Why don't I just stay home in the future? I can stab myself five times in the hands and antecubital areas, charge myself five dollars for parking, send myself some bills later and curse and say how am I going to pay for these?