Where's Trixi?

I notice when I go to the ballet I walk differently when I come out. I walk tall, more grateful, more aware of my body. Maybe a little too aware of my body. Tim and I made out in the car for a long time. It was really nice and he's the one who said I'd better go inside. First guy I've ever dated who said that. Whoa, am I dating him? I guess so. Oh jeez I hate these confusing betraying feelings he brings up in me. Why didn't Trixi just marry him and not vanish? I could go out with the two of them and hang out with the people I love the most. Sigh.